HELP!

Why can't I act normal
In front of my Deary who is so formal?
Is there something wrong?
Is my feeling for Deary that strong?

How could I be so sure
Is my affection for Deary that pure?
Am I feelings what others' also feel?
seriously, is it for real?

He's like a DEAR.....
Oh, how I wish he's here!
I treat Deary as my friend
But I don't want to it to stay at a trend...

It started with a crush
So please hush hush... :|
I'm sorry if I'm acting so rude
I just want to hide my feelings, dude!

I just want it to end, RIGHT NOW!
But the real question is how?
For my feeling for him is unstoppable
Because do you know why? He's so lovable

My, oh, my.. I'm totally freaking out
For I'm being ruled by doubt!
So, please Lord, my God, help me.....
Cause it's not possible. I just want to go back to reality!